2021 has come and gone and yes, it is already over two weeks into the New Year. I have been slow to reflect on the past year and I am approaching an anniversary date in a few days, that stepped me into a different year; more so than I ever expected. (Sample run on sentence)
My word for this past
year was “steps.” As 2020 ended and I reflected on all the things; I choose
steps as it was my intention to take many of those different things in moving forward.
In the fall of 2020 I had lost 40 lbs over the past two
years and was walking some 2 miles each day. I wanted to step into 2021 like
everyone else with so much behind. I intended to walk more and take more steps in a healthy life.
Then January 20 happened and the car accident. It led
to diagnosis of Hairy Cell Leukemia (or as I like to call it Harry Styles Leukemia
– because he’s my favorite because of his attitude on kindness).
I spent over 300 hours with doctors and nurses for the
treatments, tests, and infusions. Not too mention all the chiropractic,
physical therapy, neurologist, and follow up visits for the car accident.
As I think back on the year, it was all about the
steps.
At the time of the car accident (which I have very
little memory) I recall being in the snow bank inside the car and want to step
out of the car. My next memory was that of step forward and leaning on the
front end of the car. And then my next memory was stepping into the front door
of the house across the street from the accident. The person who lives in that
house, happened to be a paramedic and wanted me to get warm and sit on his
couch.
The next month or so was the steps to get a diagnosis.
For example, the bone marrow biopsy has a series of steps that the nurse walked
me through. He was very kind and explained everything as it happened.
The entire year has been small steps to every situation
that has been laid out in front of me. There were so many steps to everything. As I look back on those days, I have
learned a great deal about control.
There is a Jewish proverb, “Man makes plans and God
laughs.” It seems that is my great lesson for 2021. No matter what I planned, the Grand Old Designer had a different direction.
It brings me to this NEW YEAR. I am getting ever so slowly better and I have a desire to find this year's word of focus.
My counselor, Ryan, suggested that I consider focus on what I have the energy to do instead of focusing on what has not been done. What am I showing up for? At the start or end of each day to ask, "Today, I have the energy for..."
He said it in his suggesting manner. Give your self time to renew. As, I wrote that down, it jumped out like their it was all the time.
I look to this to direct and influence myself and a new affection.
And with that, I wish you all a Happy New Year! (yes, I know its already the 16th of January.
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